Locks of Love

I received my card today.







My hair arrived safe and sound. I hope it brings joy to a special little one out there.

Updates

Went to the Docs today for my check up after Surgery. Everything is looking good and I don't have to go back until November for my 6 month checkup from the Bypass Surgery.

Weight loss is good and blood levels are looking good. Vit D still really low but that's nothing new.

So not much to report for once. It was a good visit.

To date I have lost 168 pounds

5 Days Out

It's been 5 days since my Gall Bladder removal. I have to say this surgery was like a walk in the park compared to other surgeries I have had.

Other than being a bit tired and feeling a bit of pinching/burning at the puncture sites, it hasn't been too terribly bad.

I went out shopping yesterday to Target and felt ok ... I was tired when I got home but I did it.

My Doctor said the surgery went great. He did mention that I had built up all the scar tissue he cut out last surgery .. so he cut it all out again lol ... I do like to heal quickly.


Other than that he said things went smooth as silk and I only spent 2 hours in recovery and about one more hour just walking around and getting my feet back under me and then getting discharged.

I tried to lay on my side Saturday night ... that was a mistake .. owie! But, last night I was able to lay on my side fine.

Lets just hope this is it for a while..... the only thing I have left hanging over my head is having to have the thyroid biopsies redone ... but I am holding off on that for a little bit.

BTW speaking of that ... I saw one of the other Doctors I had seen a while back and he walked right by me didn't even recognize me until I said hello to him then he did a double take ... I've lost so much weight and with the short hair ... no one recognizes me anymore lol


Here is a pic I took of myself yesterday before going to Target .... who is this person with the skinny neck? Cause it sure isn't me lol!




I notice I am wearing a lot more Pink now too. I never used to wear pink. I always thought people would associate it with Pink Elephants ... Now I just wear it because I love the color. I don't even think about that anymore. It is amazing what the brain will retain and let go of when you start feeling better about yourself.

I still have a long way to go ... but as of today I am 172 pounds down and I am feeling stronger and have more stamina every single day.

23g of Protein In Instant Coffee???

Yep you heard it here folks lol ....


Well sort of ;)

I have a new concoction I made.

I love my new EAS chocolate protein mix. I decided to try some in a cup of coffee and wow .... It was pretty darn good. Tasted just like a cafe' mocha.

Each scoop of EAS has 23g or protein in it. So it's a win win for me ... I get my coffee and my protein ..... and of course my beloved chocolate lol :p

One word of advise ... mix up the EAS in cold water then heat it and add a spoon of instant coffee. I tried to add it to the hot coffee and I ended up with a cup of glue .... not good lol.

But live and learn eh?

~ Try it .. you will like it

Surgery is set

After seeing my Surgeon last Thursday - surgery has been set for September 3rd. I will be having my Gall Bladder removed and a general check up in there to see if there are any adhesion's causing trouble.

I can't say I am looking forward to more surgery. It's been a bit of a struggle coming to terms with it. I seem to just start feeling good and something else sets me back.

As they say I know this too shall pass ... but it sure is hard to stay positive at times.

But, remembering that pain from the flare up and blockage is more than enough to make me want the surgery more than not want it.

And regardless ... no matter what I have no regrets. I do feel SO much better and can do SO much more already.

I plan on having a rockin' summer next year ... being able to go and do all sorts of things :)

Hospital Update

I am just now getting around to update this. I am doing ok now ... but last Sunday was the day from hell.

I hadn't been feeling good all day it started about 4am. It felt like someone was standing on my chest.... I thought GREAT! I've been doing all this to get healthier and NOW I am going to have a heart attack!

... well after I calmed myself down and laid down for a while it felt better ... I figured I was having an issue called "dumping" that happens to bypass patients sometimes. It can mimic a heart attack but it's all in the digestive tract. The only flaw in that theory is it happens right after you have eaten something ... I hadn't eaten anything since dinner around 6pm the night before.

Well since the pain stopped I didn't give it much more thought. There are so many freaky things that pop up now and again from this surgery that I just chalked it up to one of those occurrences.

Noon came and went ... I ate a little lunch and everything seemed fine but I was just zonked out ... I felt so drained I laid down and fell asleep. I didn't wake up until nearly 7:30pm. I figured I should get something to eat because I have to eat a little something every 5 to 6 hours or I don't get enough nutrition in to me.

With in two teaspoons of food I had to run to the bathroom .... I was so sick :(

.. then the chest pain started again ... then I got hot, cold and sweaty/clammy all at the same time. I thought ... hmmm not good.

I wobbled myself back to my room and laid down ... as soon as I stretched out I felt a little better and I turned to my left side and just laid there but started to get a little uncomfortable. I then turned to my right side and WHAMMO!!! I felt like someone had just gutted me like a deer! The pain was so intense I couldn't breathe. I couldn't even speak for a minute... then I just screamed it hurt so Goddamn bad!

My sister and nieces came racing in and Jessy took one look at me and called 911 .. I loathe going to the hospital ER's but I was in no position to argue. I was nearly ready to pass out.

All I could think of was this had to be Gall Bladder related .. I can remember my Mom and Sister being in agony before theirs were removed.

Once they got me in the ambulance - my first time ever in one of those contraptions - they gave me some good drugs and everything calmed down.

I then got to the ER ... a brand new multi million dollar state of the art new addition they put on the Hospital. (this is useful information for later in my story)

So they all did their thing .. ran tests ... CT Scan ... blood tests ... pushing here ... prodding there ....

Conclusion was .... small intestinal blockage.

Ok fine .. "we are going to admit you for the night for observation"

So my sister and brother in law leave and I am laying there watching the lovely flat screen TV that the ER has as part of their new gorgeous roomy rooms.

They then said umm we don't seem to have any room at the inn ... all the rooms were filled to capacity ... but they "saved" me a place in the hall.

I found that rather funny that I now had to move from my gorgeous ER room to the hall for who knows how long ... someone is either going to have to die or go home for me to get a room

One of the Nurses commented that now we need a new hospital since they can take so many more people in the ER now.

(See why I told you how fancy it was?)

Ok back to me ...


around 9am I get visited by one of 3 Surgeons .... man I sound like a Christmas Tale here....

The Surgeon of Gall Bladder present ...

He is sure it's my Gall Bladder and has a plan ...


The Surgeon of Gall Bladder past ...

It could have been your Gall Bladder but it's moved the problem is your intestines ... He has a plan ...

The Surgeon of Gall Bladder Future ...

It's not your Gall Bladder it's your Liver ... She has a plan


:D


By the time all was said and done I got into a room by 11am and they all got together and decided that ....

I had a small intestinal blockage caused by an inflamed, enlarged Gall Bladder which backed up into my Liver causing the infection and I was going any where until that started clearing up .... fast forward 4 days and the levels in the liver finally are nearly back to normal but the Gall Bladder really needs to come out.

So I am looking at yet another surgery probably with in the next month or so and on top of it the Endo's office called and wanted to redo the biopsies ... I said well ... you guys are gonna have to wait .. I can only handle so much once. My arms already look like I have been severely beaten. My neck just stopped looking severely beaten.

I'm trying not to let it all get to me ... it started to about mid wednesday ... I was really starting to lose the plot.

But now I am definitely home and brought some heavy duty antibiotics with me. I have to see both the Surgeon next week and have my 6 month bypass Eval with that Surgeon and get more blood tests to check on the liver progress on Monday and then on Thursday more blood tests for every other level ...

I should have taken out stock in the needle company :(

So tomorrow is the day ... I go see my bypass Surgeon for my 6 month check up and bloodwork and I will find out what the next step is.

One thing I must add ... the staff at the hospital was wonderful ... everyone was so nice and professional. They really made the stay a lot more tolerable ... I just wanted to go home so bad :(

I really liked one of my Doctors ... man he was cute .... I really looked forward to seeing him every day :p

The results are in ... sort of

I was called by the Doctor who did the procedure. One nodule is benign. The other 2 probably are but guess what? There was blood in the samples so they want to do the biopsies again. I haven't called to schedule it. I can't deal with the thought of going through that pain again. I am not good with confrontation and I am putting it off because I will be telling them She WON'T be doing it. Either they can find another Dr. or I will. I refuse to let that cold, angry little person touch me again.


I am so frustrated right now. I knew this was going to happen. She broke so many blood vessels it would have been impossible not to get some blood in the specimens.


I'm really angry too. I don't want to go through this again. I have to think about if I will or not.


On a very nice note though, as of yesterday I've lost 71 pounds since surgery and a grand total of 154 pounds since I started my new life.


So that still trumps all the nastiness I had to go through with this Thyroid garbage.


I refuse to let that ruin my good feelings.

I finally took the plunge!

Well I have finally done it!

I haven't had a haircut in nearly 20 years. My hair has been down to my butt since my early 20's. After my BIG hair days of the 80's I just let it keep growing.

So with all the changes going on in my life and my body my hair has been suffering. It was looking pretty bad and I have lost some due to my surgery. So I decided it was time for my hair to get healthy too.

People that know me will remember how long my hair was.

So Friday I took the plunge. It was time for another drastic change in my life.

Here I am 29 inches later .... Whaddya think? =0)

I love it. I never thought I could ever have a cute short hair doo! =o)





Here is the back. Sorry for the blurry .. hard to take myself lol





And here is the tail I had cut off for Locks of Love

that brought it to right above my shoulders. Six more inches were cut off as I got my new style.





So far everyone in my family looks at me with the OMG look .. then take a deep breath and tell me how cute it is :o)

And here is one I got a bit artsy with ... just a hint of color

It's Over ...

I'm back among the living. What a nightmare that was

I came home and just went to bed. I was so stressed out.

One thing I can say is if for whatever reason I have to have this done again .. that Doctor will never touch me again. She was rude, arrogant and worst of all cold and very rough.

She hurt me so badly I was tearing up ... I was trying so hard to keep it together and she says to me .. "Shall we cancel this procedure" I was just stunned ... you have no idea how badly I wanted to say yes lets! At that point I was only 1/3 of the way through the procedure.

She stuck me 18 times - six needles per nodule (I was told it was only going to be 3 aspirations per nodule) and once she was in there she jack hammered the needle until she found the right spot.

I've had this done before when the left side of my Thyroid was removed and it never hurt like this. My neck is so swollen and I can't turn my head. The only time she her tone was friendly with me was when another doctor came in to was some of the procedure.

As soon as I was done she said now you realize this may have to be done again if we don't get definite results. I said to myself ... I think not - at least not by you.

She even told me to stop breathing the way I was breathing and breathe right and to stop tearing up it was causing mucus in my throat.

Just how is one supposed to breath with needles being jack hammered into the base of ones throat and a scan wand being jammed into the side to show the nodules.

If anyone knows the answer let me know so I can be a "better" pin cushion next time

When I came out my sister came right over to me and said Jesus, what did they do to you.... and then I burst into tears.

It looks like there is a golf ball trapped under my skin and I am all bruised. I never had that happen before.

After I calmed down I guess it was my time to get someone like this. Up until now all of the Doctors I have seen have been excellent. Very kind and compassionate.

I'm really not a baby and I'm not looking for anyone to fall all over me. Do what you have to do and lets get it over .. but geez at least have a little empathy for your patient. She had to have known she was hurting me.

I was pretty much a wreck the rest of the afternoon. But, after a good nap I don't feel too bad .. just swollen and sore.

I managed to eat a little and I get some water in me so that's always a good sign

I should know sometime next week what the results are.

I have really felt blessed because everyone I have had to deal with for the last 6 months has been so professional and so nice so I guess odds were that I get a sour one eventually.

I will make it known I don't ever want her again and why. I really wasn't looking for coddling but if she had just said something kind and given me a minute to gather myself it would have been an entirely different experience ... instead she chose to treat me like a two year old and threaten to end the procedure if I couldn't control my emotions.

I guess I just need to figure out how to enjoy having my throat stabbed 18 times and show no emotion or feeling.


Here are a couple shots I took quick to show you the damage


at a distance:







Up close: You can see each needle stick and the horizontal bruising from her jack hammering the needle once in there.








You can see the swelling ... last night it was sticking out just as if a golf ball was in there.

I am just so glad it's over ... for now anyway

Getting Nervous

Tuesday I have the biopsies on my Thyroid done at 8am. I'm so nervous, but trying not to obsess.

9 needle sticks


I am so not looking forward to this :(